Wednesday, November 23, 2005
So this is...not hate?
Revision of yesterday's angst-ridden hatred of the best friend post: I do not hate her. Quite. But I do think that the cutting ties thing is a good idea.
What's really astonishing about that is that it's one of the few times we've ever agreed about anything significant...the irony of us finally agreeing on parting ways is just delicious, isn't it?
I realized, after a short and awkward conversation with her today, that the one thing I resent most is the way she completely disrespects my religion. Even though my church (which she has been to) is about 95% gay, somewhat liberal (even a little charismatic at times), and very welcoming. I am not my parents. I was excommunicated by my parents' church, for God's sake. I'm more Democrat than Republican...I have a rainbow sticker on my car. I'm hardly a poster-child for the Religious Right, the devil rest their black little souls. I realize that she's not into religion, etc., but geez, show some respect. I mean, I've never shown such blatant disregard for something she felt so deeply about...certainly never to the extent of mockery. Even The Bitch, my pagan ex-friend Kellie, was a little more respectful of my Christianity than Sarah has been recently. And that's saying something.
Why is she automatically right about everything, just because she's a few years older than me and has had a rough life? It just doesn't seem fair.
There I go again, being naive...talking about fairness. Next thing you know I'll be having picket fence daydreams about enrolling the charmingly hyphenated children I'm raising with my life-partner in politically correct preschool.
Why is it that the only retorts I can think of are always the really, really harsh ones? The ones that I could never use and expect her to speak to me again? Why can't I find a middle ground between backing down and swatting a fly with a sledgehammer?
Maybe I will post some of my more choice sarcastic morsels where they won't offend anybody. Maybe keep them as a wallpaper on my computer...*smirk*...just kidding. Mostly.
What's really astonishing about that is that it's one of the few times we've ever agreed about anything significant...the irony of us finally agreeing on parting ways is just delicious, isn't it?
I realized, after a short and awkward conversation with her today, that the one thing I resent most is the way she completely disrespects my religion. Even though my church (which she has been to) is about 95% gay, somewhat liberal (even a little charismatic at times), and very welcoming. I am not my parents. I was excommunicated by my parents' church, for God's sake. I'm more Democrat than Republican...I have a rainbow sticker on my car. I'm hardly a poster-child for the Religious Right, the devil rest their black little souls. I realize that she's not into religion, etc., but geez, show some respect. I mean, I've never shown such blatant disregard for something she felt so deeply about...certainly never to the extent of mockery. Even The Bitch, my pagan ex-friend Kellie, was a little more respectful of my Christianity than Sarah has been recently. And that's saying something.
Why is she automatically right about everything, just because she's a few years older than me and has had a rough life? It just doesn't seem fair.
There I go again, being naive...talking about fairness. Next thing you know I'll be having picket fence daydreams about enrolling the charmingly hyphenated children I'm raising with my life-partner in politically correct preschool.
Why is it that the only retorts I can think of are always the really, really harsh ones? The ones that I could never use and expect her to speak to me again? Why can't I find a middle ground between backing down and swatting a fly with a sledgehammer?
Maybe I will post some of my more choice sarcastic morsels where they won't offend anybody. Maybe keep them as a wallpaper on my computer...*smirk*...just kidding. Mostly.
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Hey sweets. Sorry I haven't replied to your email yet... I promise I will soon! The weekend flew by and I think I got to spend maybe 20 minutes in front of the computer. How was your weekend? Did you have a nice thanksgiving despite the drama?
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