Well technically...

Yes! It's true. Contrary to popular rumor, I am not, in fact, deceased, merely busy, tired, and/or lazy. Not necessarily in that order. Some restrictions may apply, please see store for details.

Er, as I was saying...I humbly apologize for not posting in the past two weeks (!), but I have had a lot going on. Here is some of it:

• Inexplicable sleeping problems and some very strange dreams.
• Lack of money.
• Really strange schedule.
• Reappearance of a piano in my life (yay!)
• Inability to play said piano as well as I used to, but getting better with practice. Found the metronome that I will eventually get. *sigh* It's just so beautiful...
• Fight with girlfriend over me not looking for a better job so I can go up and see her sometimes.
• Subsequent signup with monster.com (last night).
• Message from rather eager recruiter who found my resume early this morning
• Discussion with recruiter this afternoon, who will call me back at 10 am on Thursday to discuss specific companies and "get the ball rolling" (!!)
• Excited and nervous and wishing it was Thursday :-)

No, I'm not dead. Just busy and tired and sick of Dairy Queen and itchy and distracted and broke. That's all.

Sorry for the lack of posts. In my defense, I would like to point out that I have rated many, many songs, albums, and artists on Launchcast this week and devoted hours and hours to creating Sarah's Valentine's presents, which I mailed off today.

I also took my grandfather his toilet paper and tissues and Tums yesterday and worked several hours of overtime (this week and last week) and got (wrongfully) accused of favoritism at work. I'm still pretty pissed about that one.

I am so, so tired. My back is killing me. My feet hurt, and my eyes ache. I got called in two hours early today, and I was already supposed to work a seven-hour shift. So I worked about nine instead, and I didn't get a chance to do my laundry, because I was going to do it before I went to work, so now I have to do it tomorrow. And I barely ate anything all day so now I'm starving and I think I might go to Wendy's (way to stick to my diet, right?).

Sarah was very sweet and bought me some books from Amazon.com for Valentine's Day, but I already had two of the three (because apparently we're cursed like that), so I'm going to return them and get a used copy of the second season of The L Word instead, because I really, really want to see it and I'm sick of getting tantalizing little hints at what's going on. I want to KNOW. Grr.

Also, I have a fair amount of tidying and cleaning to do this weekend, because (as far as I know) Shannon is moving in on Monday or Tuesday.

I can't tell you what it is until she gets it, but I can tell you guys that Sarah's Valentine's Day present is pretty awesome. I put a LOT of work into it, and I really, really hope she likes it, because otherwise I will be totally crushed. I don't know how much I would like it if she gave it to me, but it's not really her style, so I guess that's kind of immaterial...it is, at least, very DIY, which is something she's into. And I should probably stop second-guessing myself, since I have, after all, already mailed it. Right? Right.

Okay, time for Wendy's. Goodnight, all.

So...work was crazy busy tonight. I'm pretty exhausted, now that the adrenaline has worn off.

Also, I wrote quite a bit on our novel yesterday, and I thought I saved it as a draft, but apparently I only saved about a third of it. SO, I will have to re-write the other two-thirds from memory as best I can and then finish it, and I'm just not feeling up to it right now.

Also, LL (the lesbian at work) is coming to my church tomorrow, so I'm going to have to come up with a way not to sit next to her. I'll either have to be really early and sit with people I know or really late and sit in the back row. Or something. And then I'm going to talk to Sarah while she's on her lunch break and then I'm going to have lunch with Shannon, and then I'm going to take my grandfather the stuff I got for him at the store, and then maybe I'll have a chance to breathe for what feels like the first time this week.

PS Did I mention that I have my period right now and it sucks? And I itch, and that sucks too? Grr.

Things that suck:

• My rent is now $30 more per month.
• I owe about $265 worth of taxes, even though I don't make very much money.
• I am pretty exhausted. I hate closing and then opening. And then closing the next day and opening the next morning (=Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday for me this week).
• I have to change grease tomorrow morning. It's gonna be gross.
• I might have to borrow money from someone just in order to get by. Or else ask my grandfather for money, which would be awkward and embarrassing, especially since he's so deaf and I'd have to ask him about six times.
• I haven't really noticed much progress with my vague kind-of-diet (one soda/unhealthy drink per day, dessert three times a week, and I try to eat more vegetables and not as much meat).
• I can't talk to my manager about my financial situation because she's out for a whole month recovering from surgery.
• My apartment is a wreck and I need to get it cleaned up before Shannon moves in.
• Yesterday was one of the longest days I've had in quite a while (almost twelve hours on my feet without a break). I felt completely wrung out by the time I got home.
• Amazingly, I have NOT won anything in the Subway Fresh Resolutions instant win game. How unfair is that?
• My pastors are moving to Texas to be closer to their family. I completely understand their reasons, but it still sucks for those of us who are left here.
• I had to tell the new lesbian at work that we can't be friends because I'm an assistant manager and she's a crew member. She didn't really get that whole fraternization concept, apparently. And she's pretty clueless about GLBT history, culture, and politics. AND she's getting ready to go into the Coast Guard. Because we all know how much Uncle Sam loves gay people.

Things that don't suck:

• I got a package from Sarah today with two CDs in it. Yay!
• I'm supposed to have dinner with a couple I know from church tomorrow night.
• And lunch with Shannon on Sunday.
• And coffee with Mrs. W. next week.
• LAUNCHcast is possibly the coolest thing ever and I am so addicted. Seriously. I sit at my computer for hours playing solitaire or doing something equally useless while I rate songs (and comedy) obssessively. Right now, for example, the fabulous entity that is LAUNCHcast is playing Seasons of Love from the original cast recording of Rent. Right after John Mayer. Right after Tom Lehrer. It just doesn't get much better than that.
• Apparently I know several people who would be willing to loan me money. I don't know if I will need to accept any gifts or loans, but it's nice that people care enough to be willing to loan me money.
• I have the best girlfriend ever in the history of the world. Really. She is cute and funny and smart and witty and knowledgeable and cool and fun and brave and just generally awesome.
• I have DSL now. It rocks my world.
• I finally blogged, so Sarah will have to stop nagging me for at least a day or two. Plus my entry was at least twice as long as hers. Ha!
• (kidding)
• (mostly, anyway)